Chad and I are getting married two months from today! Last week I had a few hard days, thinking that two months was way too long to wait and that I didn't want to be in Provo anymore, I just wanted to be with Chad. Instead of being excited for the wedding, I was dreading the two months before the wedding. I also was feeling some anxiety towards going through the temple, which was especially hard because I have always been so excited to go to the temple and I wasn't sure why I was starting to feel those feelings. I think the reason why is because I was focusing on all the comments I was receiving that it's going to be strange and overwhelming and that I will not ever be really prepared for it. Instead of thinking about why I'm going to the temple, I was focusing on the unknown "what"s of the temple, and that was making me feel stupid and anxious.
But I got to visit Chad yesterday (thanks for the ride, Mary!), and after talking with him I've decided that both of those bad attitudes have got to go! I am now going to be excited for the next two months! They will be great. I get to take two really fun classes at BYU, continue to plan the fun stuff of the wedding, enjoy my last two months as a BYU coed (any great ideas of what I should change my blog name to after I'm not a BYU coed anymore?), take a temple prep class, and make the most of living in this beautiful valley in the shadow of Y Mount and Mt. Timpanogos. Life is good! I also am going to continue to prepare to enter the temple, but not with an attitude of uneasiness, but with an attitude of excitement that I get to go to the temple as a guest of the Lord, to learn more about His ways, to worship Him more fully, and to make sacred covenants with Him. I expect I won't understand most of what's going on the first time I go through the temple, but that's okay! I've got lots of time for that! For now I will just try to enjoy what I do have.
6 comments:
I'm glad you adjusted your outlook on the next two months and going to the temple!! Your attitude is now where it should be! That's exactly the attitude you should take before going to the temple. Enjoy the wonderful Spirit there, take in as much as you can, and enjoy your experience. You have a lifetime to absorb all there is to learn there. "Line upon line," you know! Appreciate each day of this last term of schooling! You won't ever be a single co-ed again! It will be so exciting to count down the days til June 23rd with you! 60, 59......!
Abbi, if it helps, I had similar struggles before going to the temple. All of a sudden I had wierd feelings towards it that I had never had before. But it makes sense. Satan is working extra hard to stop the progress you will be making when you go to the temple. Don't give Satan the time of day! When you change your attitude and discard Satan's whisperings, he cannot have any power over you at all. You will love the temple. There is no doubt in my mind.
Abbi,
You seemed a little anxious on Saturday when I saw you. I am sorry honey!! Seriously, the temple is amazing! DO NOT listen to people when they say that the temple is "weird" or whatever. Seriously, it is REAL and it is not weird. I never once thought that- what you do there is natural and amazing! You have a life time to learn everything so just take it all in and enjoy your time there. You will love it! I am really happy for you Abbi and yes, sometimes the planning of the wedding makes it hard to get really excited. If you need any help with anything, please call on me! I'd love it!! :)
The Temple is such a wonderful, peaceful place. It isn't weird at all. It is just new. And you have your whole life to understand it. You will love it, I know it!
I can't wait until we can come and celebrate your marriage. It will be a wonderful, joyful time.
I got some excellent advice from my stake president that made my temple experience awesome. He said to focus on the covenants you make because they are all that matters the first time through. Also, focus on how you feel during the session. I remember my parents were called as mission president the day before I went through the temple. After listening to the covenants, I remember turning to my father and saying, "You are going to accept this calling even though it will be a huge sacrifice and now I know why."
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