No More Pile-Up

I am trying really hard to be positive about life, because I have SO many things to be SO happy about. Namely, all the wonderful things associated with getting to marry Chad C*. But sometimes I have a hard time being positive during the week, because I want so badly to be near him and I can't be. I hate being separated from him and not being able to see him everyday, and only being able to talk to him for about a half hour or so a day. I cannot wait to be married to him and be able to come home to him and have him come home to me. I cannot wait for the day when I don't have to think, "Just four more days and I can be with him again." In six and a half weeks that day will be here! But six and a half weeks feels like forever.

Which is why it's really funny that yesterday I started stressing out over all the things I need to get done during those six weeks. You'd think that if I thought six weeks was forever, I wouldn't stress over what I needed to do in them, because I would feel that I have so much time to get them done! But instead of taking one thing at a time, I started thinking about all there is to be done and how I don't want to do them, I just want to be married and have them over with. They were all flying around in my head and the result was a feeling of pile-up.

So I decided in order to calm myself down, I should numerate the things I need to do and then prioritize them. Here is the list, and I'll prioritize them day by day during the next six weeks:

Buy a car (get a loan)
Apply for jobs (in the hopes that I can start a good job in July)
Complete the readings for Psych 350
Write the papers for Psych 350
Complete the readings for HFL 260
Do the homework assignments for HFL 260
Go running or play tennis five times a week
Shop for:
-A sign-in book
-A wedding cake
-An outfit for my luncheon
-A temple dress and slip
-A veil
-White shoes
-Hair decorations for the wedding
-Jewelry for the wedding
-A ring for Chad
Sell my desktop
Write in my journal about the last four and a half months…
Copy my blog entries since January into my journal
Copy my emails since September into my journal
Organize my pictures from Romania
Organize all my stuff so moving to Chad’s will be easier
Read The Holy Temple
Read Between Husband and Wife
Add to my Labels list as people send me their addresses
Go to the temple once a week
Get a bishop and stake president interview for my temple reccomend
Go to the other three temple prep classes

So now that I have everything written down, I can take one thing at a time and not be overwhelmed. I need to set my life in order. This way, instead of the letting the feeling of missing Chad keep me from feeling motivated to accomplish these things, I should use my focused plan of attack to accomplish these things help me cope with the feeling of missing Chad. This is definitely something my mom has taught me--take one thing at a time, and life will feel much easier than if you think about everything you need to do all at once.

And in closing, I want to say that I feel like the luckiest girl in the world because Chad is my fiance. He is so good to me and he gives me every reason in the world to be happy. He is so patient with me and he treats me with so much kindness. I cannot believe how blessed I am to have him in my life. I love him so much and I admire him so much, for the work he does but especially for the person he is. I hope that I can endeavor to deserve him, and that I can make him feel as happy as he makes me.